If you don't like me..

Disclaimer: This is not directed at anyone in particular. It's just something I had to get out. I've encountered a few people who had been very rude and insulting to me, and thought I didnt know. But thats in the past, this is just something I'm going to put out there for putting out there. Hopefully it will help some people know me better. take of it what you will and please read.

I mentioned it to my dad not long ago that I've actually found it harder, not easier, to make genuine friends as I got older. At least, when it comes to people around my age. He responded, "Well, thats probably because you become less flexible. Flexibility is a good thing, but if you're too flexible you're like water. And you're more comfortable with yourself as a person, and you want some of those same things in friends."

So this is to anyone...

If you don't like me because I can be quiet, shy, and reserved before I'm completley comfortable around you...

If you don't like me because I have morals...

If you don't like me because I put school work before "hanging out"...

If you don't like me because I can have with out using obscenities...

If you don't like me because I can have fun that isn't at the expense of anyone elses self esteem...

If you don't like me because I don't have the perfect, thin, body...

If you don't like me because I'm not going to put up with you if you're not anything I deserve...

If you don't like me because I stand up for what I know whats right...

If you don't like me because I get good grades (mostly) ...

If you don't like me because I know what I want in life...

If you don't like me for any of the reasons, but not limited to, listed above I've got a newsflash for you. I. Don't. Care. Am I perfect, no? But I'm happy with myself. There's things about me I'm working to change, but if all you're going to do nothing but insult someone, I'm not going to stoop to those levels to make anyone happy. I'm mature enough to be polite, and friendly and honest even if someone is not my favorite person but I don't hate anyone.

So think of me what you will, but I'm not going to let it deter me.

:)

Its beginning to look a lot like...

Happy Holidays, the holiday season has officially started (tomorrow!)...okay maybe some people start considering it the Holiday Season once November starts the day after Halloween but it really kicks into effect on Thanksgiving. We have our dinner, then we turn on the Christmas music and set up the tree, and that's really w hen things get into full swing.

It has been cold though, and by cold I mean really cold. I thought my hands might fall off when I was biking to school yesterday, I really need to find my gloves. It didn't even hit 50 yesterday in St. George...which is really cold for St. George. And I walked into the Gardner center after printing off my essay, and there were Christmas decorations EVERYWHERE. Wasn't exactly expecting it, but okay.

I woke up this morning, at my parents house here in Apple Valley and its WHITE outside.... Pictures to come later, Happy Holidays everyone!

Some thanks

I was thinking (and while its not quite thanksgiving yet, these thoughts may have been spurred on by my research on Pilgrims today)... that no one says what they think of someone enough. No one says 'I love you', or says 'thank you' or 'I admire you', or 'I respect you' as much as they should. I'm certainly guilty of this charge, and so is everyone else. I think its important that we let people know, you never know how it could make someones day, cheer them up, or a multitude of other things.

So I want to give that to some people.

Alex Knapton. We've been friends for a long time (1st grade!), and while we lost contact there for awhile I'm proud to say we're still friends. We've both grown and changed, as has the friendship, but its still intact and that means a lot. Thank you so much for being there for me. I hope to see you again soon. :)

Bellenie Black. I haven't seen you in years, but every time I talk to you your quirky personality never fails to cheer me up. Thank you!

Cassie Orman, I'm so proud and happy to call you my best friend. You have literally been there for me through thick and thin and I probably don't express this as often as I should. I wish there were a better way to say it than just thank you. I know I can be kind of ridicoulous at times, so really thank you. I hope I've given the same to you.

Julise (Jager) Nelson. This is another of those cases where we've lost touch over the years. I dare say we aren't as close as we once were, and I'm sorry I couldn't make it to your wedding. But please know I have great memories with you, still considere you a friend,and want you to be happy.

Lizzi Sims, Ashlee Neilson, Jessica Butterfuild, Jenny Brown, Amanda Hansen and anyone else I'm missing... we've all grown and become different individuals, certainly...but I have a lot of fond memories with all of you. Thanks for making middle school, and the other times we spent together, great!

Crystal Beecher. I know I can be a bit erratic and disorganized at times (or maybe a lot? ^ ^) And that we have a lot of different views on things. But thank you, to you and Robert, for allowing me to live here and 'putting up' with me. Most of all, thank you for being a friend.

Dorothy Englman, Cyril Noble,Mark Setser, Jerry Howard and probably a lot of other people I'm forgetting.... You guys are awesome. I'm so glad I've gotten to know and work with you guys and consider a lot of you my friends. Most of all,thank you for giving me oppurtunites to work with you all and make a difference.

Bethany Coyle, Jason Benno, Logan Hunt, Sala and so many others who are younger than me but have figured out how to take a stand and fight for whats RIGHT already. That's especially difficult in Utah. I admire you guys for it, keep it up!

Solveig, my dear sister... I love you. That about says it all...but you're not just my sister, you're my best friend. you've always been there for me. Thank you.

Morgan, my other dear sister! You never fail to cheer me up! I LOVE how happy you always are, never stop! Love, love, love you!

Mom and Dad, I don't know how I can put this in as little words as possible and still be efficent in saying what you mean to me. Thank you for never really giving up on me. I realize I was a heard headed, stubborn, naive teenager and young adult for a long time and I must of caused you a lot of grief. I still have a lot of things to learn, but I love you both, so much. I don't know how to say it other than that,I don't know of a more efficent way... and I mean every word of it. Thank you, and I love you.

I'm probably missing a lot of people I didn't give specifics to, but if you're tagged it means you mean SOMETHING to me...so guys, I love you all.
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Sayonara Daisuki Na Hito

For those wondering that means, "Goodbye my favorite person" or "Goodbye my love". Its Japanese, a them song of a Japanese Drama that I watched years ago and have now just hunted down again since I just remembered it. Its really a beautiful song.

Well,I need to write this before I forget again.I 'm really bad at this blogging every day thing. Not that many people read it, ah well.

Elections are finally over. DEEP BREATH...

I have more free time now, though it doesn't feel like that yet. The Replublicans took the house, Democrats kept the Senate at least. If the Repubs had taken both I think I would of gotten out of the country today had it been possible...Still, its upsetting.Night surprising, but upsetting that people are blaming the Democrats...and now the Republicans are saying the Democrats need to "Work with them"... It makes me want to scream. Trying to "work with them" and compromise, its what the democrats have been trying to do these past two years.

I really hope things look up by 2012 and we can get Obama reelected. My only happiness now is that neither O'Donnel (I'm not a witch, I'm you!) and Angle didn't get elected. Thank goodness.

What makes me the angry the most though, is those who complain and don't vote. Thouse who don't educate themselves on who their voting for...but one thing that really rubbed me the wrong way during election season is that no one was willing to do anything but vote. Apathy. Apathy is my pet peeve. This I have discovered.

Should you vote? Most definitely. Voting is a right, but I think people ought to look at it as a 'privilege' as well. not because it is, its not and nor should it literally ever be a privilege...but especially for us women.We've only had this right or 90 years. In reality, thats not very long. Not in comparison to so many things. I guess what I'm trying to say is, don't take it or granted. Vote every election. It does matter.

What really gets me though is people who aren't willing to do much of anything. I see people who complain, and who will vote yes,but when push comes to shove thats all they do. Voting does a lot in the world of making a difference, but you can make even more by helping on the campaigns. I support rallies whole heartedly and I'm not trying to tear them down, I'm there at nearly every one...but rallies can only do so much too. You should fight for someone who WILL make a difference to get elected.

It just irritates to me (especially those who say they will help but when push comes to shove, don't)



School...school is what makes me thing I have no free time at all.

Life As I Know It

Well.... there's been quite a few things I've been meaning to write about. So this might get a little long winded. I'll try to fit as much in here as I can but there may be another blog later tonight as well. To try to give this some form of coherency I'll go from most recent to oldest...or at least I'll try. ^ ^

Got the results back from my second history test today... I got....*drum roll*... an A! Again! :D I'm so proud of myself. I haven't gotten anything lower than an A on anything in any of my classes yet. Though granted, we just get full points for turning in our first Draft of Essays in English 1010... And I'm a little worried about how I'll do on the essay due next week for History (Seriously, I'll take a test over an Essay any day of the week)...but its on the Emancipation Proclamation, and I enjoy history...so here's hoping I'll do better on it than some of my english papers. And maybe I'll have my dad take a look at it too. Because he's awesome that way.

I'm wearing my Health Care Reform OFA (Organizing For America) shirt today... and I went to English, and all that jazz...and this one girl who I normally get along with asked me if I supported Obama after noticing my T-shirt. I said "yes", rather matter of factly... and she just went on to prove to me how ignorant and uneducated people are.

She asked me "Why? He's done everything wrong for the country." And for a few minutes I kept trying to tell her "No, he hasn't." I quickly gave up trying to make her see logic, but she started going on to one of our other classmates about how bad health care was and all these bad, horrible, wrong, things Obama had done. She even said "Now thanks to the health care law you have to work a certain number of hours to get health care."

Erm...its always been that way. Most employers have always required you work full time to get full benefits. Just how it works.

She also mentioned that a Tea Party Candidate would be a better President than Obama...that was terrifying. And when said other classmate asked her what exactly the tea party was she described them as "Not democrat or republican, just in the middle." Hah. Riiight.

But here's where it gets REALLY good.... she went off on talking about how her and her Mom just spent $400 on CLOTHES and all her DESIGNER purses...she also as an IPhone and Regular cell phone with her every day. It was all I could do not to bang my head into the desk. Typical Right Winger.

So, last night we had an amazing thunder storm. I love the rain. Generally.

That is, when I don't get caught in it.

I have a late class on Wednesday nights and I got out, and called up my mom to ask her a couple questions. It wasn't raining then, but thunder and lightning. When we were about to hang up she said "Don't get soaked." And no sooner than I hung up the phone with her it started to downpour. She jinxied me! Also, please note that this was the ONE DAY I didn't bring my coat. I was wearing a short sleeved blouse and dress pants. I basically said "Oh no," when I realized how fast it was coming down and biked as fast as I could.

By the time I got up to Boulevard and Main I was DRENCHED. My shoes squished when they walked, when I was crossing the cross walk my shoe was almost submerged in water. It was crazy!

Well, so I had a few more blocks to go and I was drenched and shivering and soaked to the bone and all that...when a lady pulled over and handed me her Umbrella. She said it wouldn't help much since I was already drenched, but I probably said thank you about three times before I went on my way...now with an Umbrella. And it gets better . I went about another block and the same lady pulls up again. She tells me, "I'd give you a ride but I already have so much stuff in my car...but we found this." And she hands me a Parka. Again I say thank you about five times and express my gratitude. She just smiles, tells me I'm welcome and drives off.

When I got home about ten minutes later and kicked off my soaking shoes, I thought about how amazing that was. ALmost no one goes out of there way to do something so nice and selfless for people anymore. Its people like that, that makes me think humanity does have a chance.

It made my day, it warmed my heart. And I only wish I knew WHO she was so I could thank her again.

Whenever someone does something amazing for you like that, guys, Pay It Forward. It will seriously make the world a better place.

Cloudy Outside And I'm loving it

What the title says ^ ^

Its October! The month of it starting to finally cool off, though maybe not enough for bonfires. For s'mores! For hot chocolate! For pumpkin carving! For Halloween! You are never too old to dress up for Halloween...EVER! Its only once a year you get that chance don't let it pass ya by. ;)

Amazing day

A quick blog before bed...

I had a, to put it simply, pretty amazing day today. Yesterday was my first day volunteering at our local democratic headquarters to push the campaigns of local and state candidates. Today we had a bus come down from SLC to help us start phonebanking and canvasing (walking and knocking on doors).

I got to the office at 12, when I was scheduled to be there and finished most of our list for Cyril's campaign. I had someone come into the office to get yard signs. She told me she was a registered REPUBLICAN, but was so dissapointed with the party that she was voting Democrat. That was pretty amazing to hear. Theres a rare Repub who actually has some common sense it seems... and then Ari, Farah and others got back from canvasing. Introductions went around, we talked some...and I was asked to be one of the main coordinators for Peter Corroons campaign here in southern utah. I foresee things and what not, and get a letter of reference from Corroon if I want.

Awesome! Awesome! Awesome!

And it doesn't end there. Dorothy and I headed over to Bluff Street Park at 3 to meet up with more of our local people and the bus people and do more canvasing. Unfortunately only three of our local people showed up (me included)... now I know its fall break...but SERIOUSLY GUYS, if you say you're going to be somewhere have the decency to SHOW UP. Getting out the vote is CRITICAL and we need all the help we can get so do SOMETHING!

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Anyway.

Sam Granato, who is running against Mike Lee for senate, showed up...and I actually got to WITH HIM on canvasing. It was kind of nerve racking at first, here I was with our possible future senator....but he's really an awesome guy. If you haven't had a chance to meet him yet, find it.

Anyway, getting tomorrows paper for sure. :D