Uncomfortable thoughts....Trying to figure it out.

Sitting here at the computer center at the DSC library trying to do research...but my thoughts keep going on back to the last few days....A lot of Saturday was good; marching in the parade with the GSA, and the get together / candle light vigil later that night in protest to Boyd K Packers speech. Despite all of that however, a lot of it unnecessarily stressful and caused some emotional distraught.

I live not with my family, about a mile and a half away from the college (That I walk to every day i have class)...and for the most part, the people I live with are pretty darn cool...But our political / religious beliefs greatly differ. This was no secret when I first moved in, it may have became more OBVIOUS later so, but I never hid it and there never seemed to be much of a problem with it.

I put signs up in my window, first for Claudia Wright and now for Corroon and Granato, to show my support and hopefully get more people to vote. I spent a lot of the time out of the house volunteering and going to meetings. I posted things on Facebook.... for the purpose of SHARING my opinions and beliefs with those who AGREED with me for the most part. It was, and never is, intended as an "attack" on someones beliefs as some people seem to think. Generally, unless I'm purposefully trying to debate someone, I stay away from debates on Facebook. I just share my beliefs, and what I as individual am trying to do to make the world just a little bit better. I go out of my way not to comment on peoples things that "oppose" my beliefs, its their page after all. They can post whatever they want.

Really, the only times I "retaliate" is when someone posts on my stuff disagreeing...which really isn't very often. Probably because a good majority of my 'friends list' are like minded.

Well this changed on Friday Night.

I had posted a tid bit of a debate between current Governor Herbert and Corroon debating that was supposed to air on Sunday Night (Speaking of I should track that down now that I reminded myself of it...) Anyway, in this tidbit they were asked about Packers hateful speech. Herbert, of course said that Gays weren't born that way and all the basic beliefs of the right. Whereas Corroon said he believes Gay's deserve equal rights and are yes, born that way.

Within a few short hours I had a comment on that....someone trying to blatantly deny that Gays are born that way and calling me a "Hate monger" because I "HATE" religion and what it teaches that all christian religions teach homosexuality as a sin... Or something.

Now let me make something clear.

I. Do. Not. Hate. Religion. Or any religiously affiliated person, for that matter. Religion has its place, like everything else. I may not be religiously affiliated as I identify myself as an Agnostic (I really don't know if there's a God or not, and if there is I don't think he really cares about someones sexual orientation), that doesn't mean I hate religion.

What I don't like, I'm going to avoid using the word 'hate' because its always going to hurt people somehow, is those religious leaders who so blindly preach rejection and inequality. Preaching to someone that they can 'change' when in fact the individual knows that they cannot. Some people will say, well sure they can to that anyway. Really, think about it. If they could change would they stick with this? With this rejection, inequality, bullying.... all that leads up to suicide in so many heartbreaking cases?

This debate seems rather like Evolution Vs Creationism to me.... the "choice" to be gay could be correct in some cases but which side is the scientific proof on?

My point is.... If this person had actually wanted to debate this issue, the chances of there being a problem arising from it would of been a lot less likely.... But in debate, you back up your claims with FACTS. And In debate.... you don't result to insults.

So, naturally, as it would be to anyone I believe...it was hurtful. Especially coming from the person it did.

Well it didn't stop there. It happened again Saturday night and resulted to tears I confronted another of my housemates about the issue. Telling her I felt really uncomfortable by what was going on, and what would be best to resolve this situation. It was suggested that I tell the individual making the hurtful claims that it was hurtful... So I did.

Well nothing much as seemed to change as they claimed I have been "Offensive" to their beliefs... Alright so one time I left my God magnet out on the fridge, but I apologized for that then and again now... They are no longer posting on my facebook, but mostly because I have temporarily restricted that not wanting to deal with anymore of that hurt.

But still we live in the same house, and still there is tension...especially as they refuse to acknowledge my presence when in the same room where before they had. Tension is mounting and I am, understandably, growing more uncomfortable in the household.

If this was anyone else, I probably wouldn't care. I'd probably tell them that I didn't care what they thought and be on with my business...but this is someone who is important to a a very important person in MY life.

Someone I call my best friend, and someone I am now terrified that I'm going to lose.