Listening to: Alison Iraheta
So I finished reading Dear John today. It's a great book, I suggest it to anyone who loves love stories and doesn't mind not so happy endings. I like it because its realistic in a heart breaking, bitter sweet,sad sort of way. Not every story has a happy ending and I imagine so many men in their army and their loved ones go through this every day, week, year. If you dont want spoilers for the movie or book,do n't continue reading.
I'm not going to go too in depth as to not spoil it too much, but hopefully I'll catch a few people's intrest. The story, as those who have seen the previews can probablly tell, is the story of John and Savannah. John meets Savanaah on one of his leaves from the army where he's st ationed in Germany. They spend two weeks togther, fall in love, and she vows to wait for him and marry him at his return. She helps him understand his father better. He goes back to the army and they spend a year about when he comes back on leave again and after that he's out by December.
But then September 11th happens and he reupps (enlisting for another two years). Savanaah loves him but isn't able to keep going without being with him and they begin to drift apart. She breaks up with him while hes in Iraq. Later it is revealed that the man she fell in love with was her best friend, a sweet and caring guy named Tim.
John has been in the army for six years when his father passes away and he goes back for his funeral, and hunts down Savanaah for his own reasons. It is obvious when they see each other again that they still love each other though Svanaah reveals she is now married to Tim. They are both sad because they know what they had was real and they let it go,John wishes she would have waited for him. Instead, because he loved and lost her, he is becoming a lifer in the army. They are both tempted to go back to the way things were and forget Tim,w ho is now ill in the hospital. In the end, of course they don't. John goes back to Germany and tells Savannah its better this way, she's marred to Tim and in any marriage theres only room for two.
The book ends with him watching her on one of his leaves. He sits on her ranch unnoticed and watches the moon rise.
Heres an exceprt from the last page
"She pauses and then crosses her arms, glancing over her shoulder to make sure no one has followed her. Finally, she seems to relax.And then I feel as if Im witnassing a miracle, as ever so slowly she raises her face towards the moon. I watch her drink in the sight, sensing the flood of memories she's unleased and wanting nothing more than to let her know Im here. But instead I stay where I am and stare up at the moon as well. And for the briefest instant, it almost feels like we're together again".
Its heartbreaking, but an amazing story. I don't think that passage has as much meaning or impact though when you haven't read the book. So like I said,earlier. I suggest it.
I plan to see the movie even if I know they've changed the ending (of course they did this is hollywood, they can't fathom no happily ever afters).
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Bad Day
Well.....today's been a bad day, to put it mildly. My side and back have been bothering more today and yesterday and If elt nauseous and light headed and like I was going to puke for the first part of work until break. I'm pretty sure it has something to do with my pains as I've hated before though part of me wonders if I should be buying another pregnancy test. Just to be on the safe side. I felt better after eating something and getting a little air.
Coming home I logged onto the computer as per usual and was immedieatlyh pissed off at an online associate who kept saying "morning sickness" and "MRI's" when I didn't even want her opinion. Things were pretty okay after that I guess.
Things got to the worst point when Scott told me his mom was at a meeting to try and keep her second job. I knew what this meant, that things would become even tighter and harder for their family and the chances of Scott moving and being a ble to see him again would drop drastically. This isn't something I want, and Im scared shitless of it. I've got my fingers crossed for everything to work out for the best (damn super intendents) but California's a sucky ass state to be in right now and I'm so worried its almost making me sick.
Though I know he does part of me wonders if Scott knows how important all of this is to me. I can't even imagine how mundane and boring school must be for him right now no matter how many times he tells me.....but its all he has to get money ri ght now and while that's racking up more debt I know the money iso ur only option of getting the move to go forward and seeing each other again. I'm just so sick and tired of waiting and some days feel like none of this is ever going to go anywhere. Though withi as much as it hurts I know that means its worth it.
Sigh.
At least one good thing came out of this I suppouse. For the first time, in well, ever....I called my mom and talked about all the above while crying into the phone. I'm so glad my relationship with her and my dad is better. It was comforting to be able to confide in her like that. Pondering jsut curling up with a book and falling asleep now. I just feel miserable.
Coming home I logged onto the computer as per usual and was immedieatlyh pissed off at an online associate who kept saying "morning sickness" and "MRI's" when I didn't even want her opinion. Things were pretty okay after that I guess.
Things got to the worst point when Scott told me his mom was at a meeting to try and keep her second job. I knew what this meant, that things would become even tighter and harder for their family and the chances of Scott moving and being a ble to see him again would drop drastically. This isn't something I want, and Im scared shitless of it. I've got my fingers crossed for everything to work out for the best (damn super intendents) but California's a sucky ass state to be in right now and I'm so worried its almost making me sick.
Though I know he does part of me wonders if Scott knows how important all of this is to me. I can't even imagine how mundane and boring school must be for him right now no matter how many times he tells me.....but its all he has to get money ri ght now and while that's racking up more debt I know the money iso ur only option of getting the move to go forward and seeing each other again. I'm just so sick and tired of waiting and some days feel like none of this is ever going to go anywhere. Though withi as much as it hurts I know that means its worth it.
Sigh.
At least one good thing came out of this I suppouse. For the first time, in well, ever....I called my mom and talked about all the above while crying into the phone. I'm so glad my relationship with her and my dad is better. It was comforting to be able to confide in her like that. Pondering jsut curling up with a book and falling asleep now. I just feel miserable.
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Updating stuff
Okay......so where to start.
Got up this morning, fuckin starvin but couldn't eat anything cuz I had to go over to the Hospital to get an Ultrasound. Try to figure out whats causing me so much pain. It went well I guess. They looked at everything not just my gall bladder. I'll get the results on Monday, and we'll go from there I guess. See whats causing me problems, if anything in there, and see if I need anything removed. If I do I think I might freak. I've never needed surgery before, the closest thing I've had to surgery is getting my wisdom teeth on one side of my mouth out....still need the others out. Grr. Anyways, if theres anything that neeeds to get removed I hope its the gall bladder. Then, at least I'd have two people I know who's have them removed. hearing about it from those experienced is a little comforting.
I have a bad habit of worrying too much, but my best friend helped me put things in prespective by saying 'if it was bad, you'd be in the emergency room'.
So true.
On the note of worrying........don't you just looove parents some times? My mom asked if I was pregnant and that might be causing the pain, of course I'm not...I've had my period, we're safe....but her putting the idea in my head was enough so I walked down to Walgreens (In the pouring rain!) and bought a pregnancy test. Of course, it was negative. A waste of money. but it put me at ease I guess.
Um....Jaycee, is one of my house-mates 8 month old baby. SHE IS SO CUTE! She's crawling now, and feeding herself...to an extent! Lol. But she is so adorable. I guess thats all for now, just felt the need to update.
4 days!
Got up this morning, fuckin starvin but couldn't eat anything cuz I had to go over to the Hospital to get an Ultrasound. Try to figure out whats causing me so much pain. It went well I guess. They looked at everything not just my gall bladder. I'll get the results on Monday, and we'll go from there I guess. See whats causing me problems, if anything in there, and see if I need anything removed. If I do I think I might freak. I've never needed surgery before, the closest thing I've had to surgery is getting my wisdom teeth on one side of my mouth out....still need the others out. Grr. Anyways, if theres anything that neeeds to get removed I hope its the gall bladder. Then, at least I'd have two people I know who's have them removed. hearing about it from those experienced is a little comforting.
I have a bad habit of worrying too much, but my best friend helped me put things in prespective by saying 'if it was bad, you'd be in the emergency room'.
So true.
On the note of worrying........don't you just looove parents some times? My mom asked if I was pregnant and that might be causing the pain, of course I'm not...I've had my period, we're safe....but her putting the idea in my head was enough so I walked down to Walgreens (In the pouring rain!) and bought a pregnancy test. Of course, it was negative. A waste of money. but it put me at ease I guess.
Um....Jaycee, is one of my house-mates 8 month old baby. SHE IS SO CUTE! She's crawling now, and feeding herself...to an extent! Lol. But she is so adorable. I guess thats all for now, just felt the need to update.
4 days!
Monday, February 1, 2010
New Blog...and Medical Problems
Well, I was looking for a new site to start this on as my old one was just so cluttered and old and I Don't really pay attention to it anymore....Anyways, I'm here.Me. Ingela. Yadda yadda.
I guess I'll just start with todays happening. I went over to the Free Doctors Clinic, was told to come back at 1 so I wandered around for awhile before heading back to the house for an hour. When 1 came around I saw the doctor, and they decided it might be my gall bladder....So I get to go o the hospital for an ultra sound on Saturday.
It's kind of scary.
I know, gall bladder removal if needed is totally survivable but still......how would you react? I've never had surgery before, so if I need it......Scary. I'm glad m y relationship with my parents is getting better though. I'm not sure I would've told them my fears and what was going on a few years ago. But yeah I guess we won't know whats happening exactly till Saturday.
On A brighter note,Scotti's visiting next week for Valentines Day! I didn't get to see him or spend it with him last year so this is a big deal. Im uber excited. We're gonna go on a double date with Josh and Cassie and see Valentines Day, as well as other fun things such as him officially meeting my parents.........YAY! :P
I guess I'll just start with todays happening. I went over to the Free Doctors Clinic, was told to come back at 1 so I wandered around for awhile before heading back to the house for an hour. When 1 came around I saw the doctor, and they decided it might be my gall bladder....So I get to go o the hospital for an ultra sound on Saturday.
It's kind of scary.
I know, gall bladder removal if needed is totally survivable but still......how would you react? I've never had surgery before, so if I need it......Scary. I'm glad m y relationship with my parents is getting better though. I'm not sure I would've told them my fears and what was going on a few years ago. But yeah I guess we won't know whats happening exactly till Saturday.
On A brighter note,Scotti's visiting next week for Valentines Day! I didn't get to see him or spend it with him last year so this is a big deal. Im uber excited. We're gonna go on a double date with Josh and Cassie and see Valentines Day, as well as other fun things such as him officially meeting my parents.........YAY! :P
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Thursday, February 25, 2010
Dear John
Listening to: Alison Iraheta
So I finished reading Dear John today. It's a great book, I suggest it to anyone who loves love stories and doesn't mind not so happy endings. I like it because its realistic in a heart breaking, bitter sweet,sad sort of way. Not every story has a happy ending and I imagine so many men in their army and their loved ones go through this every day, week, year. If you dont want spoilers for the movie or book,do n't continue reading.
I'm not going to go too in depth as to not spoil it too much, but hopefully I'll catch a few people's intrest. The story, as those who have seen the previews can probablly tell, is the story of John and Savannah. John meets Savanaah on one of his leaves from the army where he's st ationed in Germany. They spend two weeks togther, fall in love, and she vows to wait for him and marry him at his return. She helps him understand his father better. He goes back to the army and they spend a year about when he comes back on leave again and after that he's out by December.
But then September 11th happens and he reupps (enlisting for another two years). Savanaah loves him but isn't able to keep going without being with him and they begin to drift apart. She breaks up with him while hes in Iraq. Later it is revealed that the man she fell in love with was her best friend, a sweet and caring guy named Tim.
John has been in the army for six years when his father passes away and he goes back for his funeral, and hunts down Savanaah for his own reasons. It is obvious when they see each other again that they still love each other though Svanaah reveals she is now married to Tim. They are both sad because they know what they had was real and they let it go,John wishes she would have waited for him. Instead, because he loved and lost her, he is becoming a lifer in the army. They are both tempted to go back to the way things were and forget Tim,w ho is now ill in the hospital. In the end, of course they don't. John goes back to Germany and tells Savannah its better this way, she's marred to Tim and in any marriage theres only room for two.
The book ends with him watching her on one of his leaves. He sits on her ranch unnoticed and watches the moon rise.
Heres an exceprt from the last page
"She pauses and then crosses her arms, glancing over her shoulder to make sure no one has followed her. Finally, she seems to relax.And then I feel as if Im witnassing a miracle, as ever so slowly she raises her face towards the moon. I watch her drink in the sight, sensing the flood of memories she's unleased and wanting nothing more than to let her know Im here. But instead I stay where I am and stare up at the moon as well. And for the briefest instant, it almost feels like we're together again".
Its heartbreaking, but an amazing story. I don't think that passage has as much meaning or impact though when you haven't read the book. So like I said,earlier. I suggest it.
I plan to see the movie even if I know they've changed the ending (of course they did this is hollywood, they can't fathom no happily ever afters).
So I finished reading Dear John today. It's a great book, I suggest it to anyone who loves love stories and doesn't mind not so happy endings. I like it because its realistic in a heart breaking, bitter sweet,sad sort of way. Not every story has a happy ending and I imagine so many men in their army and their loved ones go through this every day, week, year. If you dont want spoilers for the movie or book,do n't continue reading.
I'm not going to go too in depth as to not spoil it too much, but hopefully I'll catch a few people's intrest. The story, as those who have seen the previews can probablly tell, is the story of John and Savannah. John meets Savanaah on one of his leaves from the army where he's st ationed in Germany. They spend two weeks togther, fall in love, and she vows to wait for him and marry him at his return. She helps him understand his father better. He goes back to the army and they spend a year about when he comes back on leave again and after that he's out by December.
But then September 11th happens and he reupps (enlisting for another two years). Savanaah loves him but isn't able to keep going without being with him and they begin to drift apart. She breaks up with him while hes in Iraq. Later it is revealed that the man she fell in love with was her best friend, a sweet and caring guy named Tim.
John has been in the army for six years when his father passes away and he goes back for his funeral, and hunts down Savanaah for his own reasons. It is obvious when they see each other again that they still love each other though Svanaah reveals she is now married to Tim. They are both sad because they know what they had was real and they let it go,John wishes she would have waited for him. Instead, because he loved and lost her, he is becoming a lifer in the army. They are both tempted to go back to the way things were and forget Tim,w ho is now ill in the hospital. In the end, of course they don't. John goes back to Germany and tells Savannah its better this way, she's marred to Tim and in any marriage theres only room for two.
The book ends with him watching her on one of his leaves. He sits on her ranch unnoticed and watches the moon rise.
Heres an exceprt from the last page
"She pauses and then crosses her arms, glancing over her shoulder to make sure no one has followed her. Finally, she seems to relax.And then I feel as if Im witnassing a miracle, as ever so slowly she raises her face towards the moon. I watch her drink in the sight, sensing the flood of memories she's unleased and wanting nothing more than to let her know Im here. But instead I stay where I am and stare up at the moon as well. And for the briefest instant, it almost feels like we're together again".
Its heartbreaking, but an amazing story. I don't think that passage has as much meaning or impact though when you haven't read the book. So like I said,earlier. I suggest it.
I plan to see the movie even if I know they've changed the ending (of course they did this is hollywood, they can't fathom no happily ever afters).
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Bad Day
Well.....today's been a bad day, to put it mildly. My side and back have been bothering more today and yesterday and If elt nauseous and light headed and like I was going to puke for the first part of work until break. I'm pretty sure it has something to do with my pains as I've hated before though part of me wonders if I should be buying another pregnancy test. Just to be on the safe side. I felt better after eating something and getting a little air.
Coming home I logged onto the computer as per usual and was immedieatlyh pissed off at an online associate who kept saying "morning sickness" and "MRI's" when I didn't even want her opinion. Things were pretty okay after that I guess.
Things got to the worst point when Scott told me his mom was at a meeting to try and keep her second job. I knew what this meant, that things would become even tighter and harder for their family and the chances of Scott moving and being a ble to see him again would drop drastically. This isn't something I want, and Im scared shitless of it. I've got my fingers crossed for everything to work out for the best (damn super intendents) but California's a sucky ass state to be in right now and I'm so worried its almost making me sick.
Though I know he does part of me wonders if Scott knows how important all of this is to me. I can't even imagine how mundane and boring school must be for him right now no matter how many times he tells me.....but its all he has to get money ri ght now and while that's racking up more debt I know the money iso ur only option of getting the move to go forward and seeing each other again. I'm just so sick and tired of waiting and some days feel like none of this is ever going to go anywhere. Though withi as much as it hurts I know that means its worth it.
Sigh.
At least one good thing came out of this I suppouse. For the first time, in well, ever....I called my mom and talked about all the above while crying into the phone. I'm so glad my relationship with her and my dad is better. It was comforting to be able to confide in her like that. Pondering jsut curling up with a book and falling asleep now. I just feel miserable.
Coming home I logged onto the computer as per usual and was immedieatlyh pissed off at an online associate who kept saying "morning sickness" and "MRI's" when I didn't even want her opinion. Things were pretty okay after that I guess.
Things got to the worst point when Scott told me his mom was at a meeting to try and keep her second job. I knew what this meant, that things would become even tighter and harder for their family and the chances of Scott moving and being a ble to see him again would drop drastically. This isn't something I want, and Im scared shitless of it. I've got my fingers crossed for everything to work out for the best (damn super intendents) but California's a sucky ass state to be in right now and I'm so worried its almost making me sick.
Though I know he does part of me wonders if Scott knows how important all of this is to me. I can't even imagine how mundane and boring school must be for him right now no matter how many times he tells me.....but its all he has to get money ri ght now and while that's racking up more debt I know the money iso ur only option of getting the move to go forward and seeing each other again. I'm just so sick and tired of waiting and some days feel like none of this is ever going to go anywhere. Though withi as much as it hurts I know that means its worth it.
Sigh.
At least one good thing came out of this I suppouse. For the first time, in well, ever....I called my mom and talked about all the above while crying into the phone. I'm so glad my relationship with her and my dad is better. It was comforting to be able to confide in her like that. Pondering jsut curling up with a book and falling asleep now. I just feel miserable.
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Updating stuff
Okay......so where to start.
Got up this morning, fuckin starvin but couldn't eat anything cuz I had to go over to the Hospital to get an Ultrasound. Try to figure out whats causing me so much pain. It went well I guess. They looked at everything not just my gall bladder. I'll get the results on Monday, and we'll go from there I guess. See whats causing me problems, if anything in there, and see if I need anything removed. If I do I think I might freak. I've never needed surgery before, the closest thing I've had to surgery is getting my wisdom teeth on one side of my mouth out....still need the others out. Grr. Anyways, if theres anything that neeeds to get removed I hope its the gall bladder. Then, at least I'd have two people I know who's have them removed. hearing about it from those experienced is a little comforting.
I have a bad habit of worrying too much, but my best friend helped me put things in prespective by saying 'if it was bad, you'd be in the emergency room'.
So true.
On the note of worrying........don't you just looove parents some times? My mom asked if I was pregnant and that might be causing the pain, of course I'm not...I've had my period, we're safe....but her putting the idea in my head was enough so I walked down to Walgreens (In the pouring rain!) and bought a pregnancy test. Of course, it was negative. A waste of money. but it put me at ease I guess.
Um....Jaycee, is one of my house-mates 8 month old baby. SHE IS SO CUTE! She's crawling now, and feeding herself...to an extent! Lol. But she is so adorable. I guess thats all for now, just felt the need to update.
4 days!
Got up this morning, fuckin starvin but couldn't eat anything cuz I had to go over to the Hospital to get an Ultrasound. Try to figure out whats causing me so much pain. It went well I guess. They looked at everything not just my gall bladder. I'll get the results on Monday, and we'll go from there I guess. See whats causing me problems, if anything in there, and see if I need anything removed. If I do I think I might freak. I've never needed surgery before, the closest thing I've had to surgery is getting my wisdom teeth on one side of my mouth out....still need the others out. Grr. Anyways, if theres anything that neeeds to get removed I hope its the gall bladder. Then, at least I'd have two people I know who's have them removed. hearing about it from those experienced is a little comforting.
I have a bad habit of worrying too much, but my best friend helped me put things in prespective by saying 'if it was bad, you'd be in the emergency room'.
So true.
On the note of worrying........don't you just looove parents some times? My mom asked if I was pregnant and that might be causing the pain, of course I'm not...I've had my period, we're safe....but her putting the idea in my head was enough so I walked down to Walgreens (In the pouring rain!) and bought a pregnancy test. Of course, it was negative. A waste of money. but it put me at ease I guess.
Um....Jaycee, is one of my house-mates 8 month old baby. SHE IS SO CUTE! She's crawling now, and feeding herself...to an extent! Lol. But she is so adorable. I guess thats all for now, just felt the need to update.
4 days!
Monday, February 1, 2010
New Blog...and Medical Problems
Well, I was looking for a new site to start this on as my old one was just so cluttered and old and I Don't really pay attention to it anymore....Anyways, I'm here.Me. Ingela. Yadda yadda.
I guess I'll just start with todays happening. I went over to the Free Doctors Clinic, was told to come back at 1 so I wandered around for awhile before heading back to the house for an hour. When 1 came around I saw the doctor, and they decided it might be my gall bladder....So I get to go o the hospital for an ultra sound on Saturday.
It's kind of scary.
I know, gall bladder removal if needed is totally survivable but still......how would you react? I've never had surgery before, so if I need it......Scary. I'm glad m y relationship with my parents is getting better though. I'm not sure I would've told them my fears and what was going on a few years ago. But yeah I guess we won't know whats happening exactly till Saturday.
On A brighter note,Scotti's visiting next week for Valentines Day! I didn't get to see him or spend it with him last year so this is a big deal. Im uber excited. We're gonna go on a double date with Josh and Cassie and see Valentines Day, as well as other fun things such as him officially meeting my parents.........YAY! :P
I guess I'll just start with todays happening. I went over to the Free Doctors Clinic, was told to come back at 1 so I wandered around for awhile before heading back to the house for an hour. When 1 came around I saw the doctor, and they decided it might be my gall bladder....So I get to go o the hospital for an ultra sound on Saturday.
It's kind of scary.
I know, gall bladder removal if needed is totally survivable but still......how would you react? I've never had surgery before, so if I need it......Scary. I'm glad m y relationship with my parents is getting better though. I'm not sure I would've told them my fears and what was going on a few years ago. But yeah I guess we won't know whats happening exactly till Saturday.
On A brighter note,Scotti's visiting next week for Valentines Day! I didn't get to see him or spend it with him last year so this is a big deal. Im uber excited. We're gonna go on a double date with Josh and Cassie and see Valentines Day, as well as other fun things such as him officially meeting my parents.........YAY! :P
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