I guess This is it

I'm really not in the mood to, but I guess....I'll post what I can on the happenings of the past few days, week or so. But it all came out to this basically.

I'm single. Scott and I broke up. Yeah, it was my call. You can say I'm a bitch, I'm evil, I don't deserve love or whatever you want to spout. And right now, I feel exactly that way. I hurt myself and someone close to me, whom I didn't want to give up. But after days of thinking about things, talking to people, I came to the realization that our relationship wasn't going to work right now. He told me it looked as if I was trying to change him....I guess thats partially true, if you mean I wanted him back to who he was before all this drama.

I guess I don't expect him to understand all my reasons and feelings on this right now, I just hope he knows that I do care for him and I'm still here whenever he wants to be friends again. Because I think I'd cry even harder if we didn't at least try to keep that somewhere down the line. But my mom and my best friend helped me realize that I need to consider myself first. Is he making me happy right now? Why not? Etcetera, etcetera.

It sounds selfish, but I guess that's just kind of how things go. I hope my life can stay relatively the same though. I think I've dried up all my tears....for now. Granted I'll probably look back and start crying again later.

Just a bit of randomness before bed

Haven't posted in a bit so just posting a bit of randomness before I fall into bed for day 7 of work in a row, then I get my wisdom teeth out on Friday....Whee....It's at the Free Doctor's Clinic so I really hope they have decent stuff to at least numb my mouth if they won't knock me out. Cuz if not, I am running out of there with my tail between my legs screaming "NO! NO! NO!"

I went to one of Sister's graduation ceremonies out of the three she has this month. This was for the Night of Excellence. So proud of her, wish I had worked that hard when I was her age but at least I feel like I'm finally getting my life back on track. It's a good feeling, and I know I'm not going to give up this time for as my dad said "I've been around the block" a few times. though on a note of her graduation, you think after Three years they'd know how to pronounce her name. Its not that hard...seriously, Solveig. Solveig. Solveig. Solveig. Maybe that's just cuz I've been saying it all my life *shrugs* Either way, it's been three years....You would think.

In other news, First Ever St. George Coffee Party This May 21st! WOOO! For more info visit my Facebook.

May is such a hectic month. Anyway, thats all for now. Just random tidbits. Good night world!